Tuesday, July 28, 2009

In Which Shana fails at being social

So, I went to the bar the other week with the hubby and a pair of his friends.

I was as shy as ever. I wiped my lipstick off before getting out of the car, and just felt awkward the whole time. I was out of place with most everyone at the bar, and especially in our little circle.

But then what else is new.

I censored myself more than usual, seeing as how they teach Sunday school together, and prefer to stay off that topic. It was quite strange though, because I play video games and D&D (or I would if there were a group around here) and D&D scares him and I think she's one of those girls who doesn't think much of gaming.

You know, games are for kids and all.

Then comes in someone I know. I see them go to the bar, and get a drink then sit not far from where I am. I watch, but do I open my mouth to say hi? Nope.

And why is this?

Because I'm too darned shy to even think about saying hi, too nervous, and even though this is a girl who once ate candy off my neck I can't walk up and say 'how's it going?'

So, I wound up breaking my own rules. I wiped off the lipstick, I didn't feel confident in an outfit that makes me feel like a rock star, and I wasn't able to have conversation with people. The only rule I didn't break was not making an excuse to not go.

it's a baby step, right?


eva said...

Maybe it would have been easier for you to say hi to your friend if you hadn't been so weirded out by these Sunday school teachers beforehand? I think it's great that you managed to stay there without walking out on them, it sounded like an uncomfortable situation.

They sound a little strange. How weird that a grown up man finds D&D scary.

Shana-Marie said...

Possibly... I was totally off my game that day as it was. Between hubby man not liking the hair, a huge argument, and then the Sunday School Teachers...

Definitely awkward!

I was really weirded out when he told me that he was scared of D&D, especially when he knows that I play the game!